4 Random Photos February 6, 2010
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Heylo everyone,
It’s been around 2 1/2 months since the semester started.
So what has been going on?
I ran for Vice President in AIESEC in USM and was recently elected as Vice President of Outgoing Exchange.
I am lagging behind my German so badly. Jessica Loi don’t slack!
My love life is… like that lah. x) Sorry to disappoint but really, that’s all there is in my love life – nothing much. Hahaha!
Everyone around me are starting to keep fit. No, I am not. I am still eating like the world is ending tomorrow.
This week alone, I’ve indulged in Mango Black Tea + Pearl, Pudding Milk Tea, Chocolate + Pudding (drink), JCo Donuts, some tomato cream salmon pasta, Famous Amos No Nut cookies, Caramel Machiato and yes, the list goes on.
I spend so much money on food, I might not have money to shop for Chinese New Year LoL. Kidding.
Oh yes, Chinese New Year is coming! I am super excited =)
and I shall leave you guys with very 4 very random pictures I took recently.
[What? You guys thought this is gonna be a lengthy post xP]
I miss home. Cannot wait to go home.
Oh, and I’ll be in Hong Kong for Chinese New Year =)
Protected: Centre of the Universe February 3, 2010
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Humpty Dumpty January 27, 2010
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Everyone knows the story of Humpty Dumpty. He sat on a wall.
As a kid who has heard this rhyme over and over again, I’ve always wondered, “Why?”. I mean he is an Egg after all. He’s fragile and to sit on the wall is like putting his ass at risk. Stupid egghead.
Humpty Dumpty sat on the wall,
Till now, I have always wondered why Dumpty even climbed up that wall. I mean, he might have fell before he reached the top. If he fell at the start of the climb, he will probably just get a crack somewhere or something. If reaches the top, even worse. If he fell from the top, he will definitely break open.
What is it at the top of the wall that made Dumpty want to go up so much? Especially when he is risking so much.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall,
I have had a lot of walls for me to climb throughout my whole life. Most of the time, they weren’t very tall. So I wasn’t afraid. I reached the top and enjoyed the view from there. Sometimes those walls can be so tall I can’t see what’s on top. I hesitate and when I do decide to go up, boy, the climb to the top were never easy.
How do I feel every time I reach the top of the wall? Honestly, I don’t really remember. I do remember that falling is extremely painful. Every time I do fall, getting up and starting over is really tough.
All this time, I have always came across walls I want to climb. Real tall ones. I know the climb will be tough but the rewards worth it. Yet, there I remained at the bottom. Not having the guts to go for it. I can’t bring myself to start the climb. I am too afraid to fall.
All the King’s horses and all the King’s men,
Couldn’t put Humpty together again.
The thought of not knowing what might happen is so daunting.
So, why was Dumpty on the wall?
Will I ever have the courage to find out?
E-mails To Write January 22, 2010
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I have so many e-mails I want to write. So many things to tell so many people.
Time is not the factor here. Words are.
At this moment, there are a few e-mail drafts; all incomplete.
The moment will come. I hope. The time where I find the perfect words to complete those e-mails and to send them out to the people they are addressed to.
There is just so much I want to share. So much to write.
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Since I have not been updating, go see my FB albums to know what I’ve been up to:
December Holidays with Friends
“Back To Uni” Dinner + Welcoming 2010
At Penang Hill with the ICX Team
EGM (Elections) and the After-Party
To KL for AIESEC Malaysia Awards Nights (AMAN)
Lets hope I am able to finish at least 3 e-mails this week =)
The Question January 22, 2010
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During the EGM (elections), one of the questions asked during the Q&A session was:
If you had a chance to restart your life, what would be the one thing you would want to change?
For every question the candidates were given 30 seconds to think and a minute to answer.
So, for that 30 seconds my entire life zoomed past me. In that 30 seconds, I remembered all the happy, the sad, the angry, the amazing moments I have had.
And so, before the 30 seconds was up, I already had an answer.
This is what I told the plenary:
My answer to your question is Nothing. I will not change a thing. I am who I am today because of all that has happened before. Whether it is good or bad, they made me Me.
I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. In a commencement speech by Steve Job’s, he talked about connecting the dots. In that speech he said that everything happens for a reason. When you think back on all that has happened in your life, you realise that it was those events, good or bad, that brought you to where you are today.
[p.s. Of course I didn't say exactly this. But something like that]
I went through a phase where I had no confidence with myself, I would beat myself down and I thought I was hopeless.
I used to spend so much time and effort to be ‘cool’. I wanted to be accepted. I was trying to please everyone.
I have lost friends.
Again and again I failed and disappointed my parents and myself.
But despite all that has happened, I am grateful. If none of all this has happened,
I wouldn’t know how to appreciate my friends now,
I will never learn how to see who are my real friends and who are not,
I would never have realised that I was not hopeless,
I would never have learned that it was trying to be ‘cool’ was stupid and being cool really means being yourself.
and most of all, I would never have learned how to love myself.
Like Steve Job’s said. Connect the dots.
Every tear I shed, every ounce of frustration I felt, every person I’ve met, every failure and disappointment happened for a reason.
The Me you see today – it’s the reason for everything that has happened.
x) January 17, 2010
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I feel like a true University student!
I have a report to write (and have no idea what to write), subjects to revise for, homework and assignments to do and AIESEC.
Won’t have time to update.
But follow my Twitter!
2 Words For You January 13, 2010
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A short update.
A message to convey.
To the people who kept pushing and encouraging me to follow my Heart and to run towards the challenge…
To the people who sent me Good Luck wishes – on Twitter, on MSN, on FB, through SMS, through Emails and the phone calls…
To the people who continuously supported me from the time I decided to run as Vice President of AIESEC in USM till now…
To the people who told me You Did It! even though the results were still unknown…
To the people who followed the elections so closely, whether from USM or Twitter and kept supporting me from where ever you are…
To the people who Congratulated me…
To the people who told me “I knew you’d do well”…
To the people who believed in me and has never stopped doing so…
There is only 2 words that I can think of saying to you guys to show you how grateful I am for your never ending support and for always believing in me…
Thank You.
Should I? January 7, 2010
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I am ashamed of myself.
I have not been updating. Uni has start, my classes are spread out throughout the day and so I have not found time to blog. I have more important stuff to do ok. [Like FB 
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I have been thinking alot about my blog – if or not I should shut it down.
It feels good to have a place where I can come back to write once in awhile but I am not actually updating nowadays. So yeah, still thinking about it.
I mean, what is the use of having a blog when I barely update it? =/
Back December 30, 2009
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From my room, I hear the bus approaching my hostel, stop and heading off again. As I walk out, I see so many people walking everywhere, some rushing, some taking their sweet time. The whole university is bustling with activities.
Aah, it feels good to be back in uni.
I am gonna miss being a student once this is all over.
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Have been busy (and rushing) to finish up my application. I’m running for a Vice President position in AIESEC in USM. x) [Ok, nobody is allowed to nag me about why I shouldn't go ahead with this]
So much to plan! – Resolutions, goals, jalan-jalan!
So much I want to do! – Edit photos, upload to FB, update blog about December break.
Omg! I don’t even have time to plan my New Year celebration. I guess it has to be spontaneous then.
x)
Hope you guys have a very Happy New Year!
The Year 2009 December 23, 2009
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2009 has been one hell of a year. The ups and downs. The tears and laughs. The disappointments and achievements. It was everything. If I were allowed to do one thing differently, I wouldn’t. Every single moment of 2009 taught me something.
I think listing everything down will be a pain to read. So I’m gonna just list out 21 [my age]
What I have learned…some of it.
- I should never doubt myself.
- Failures are not always bad.
- It’s a matter of perspective.
- Some things you do might not seem significant to you but they might be for someone else.
- Always stay positive.
- It’s not that I am scared to follow my Heart, my Heart is scared too.
- The one thing I fear most more than cockroaches – having my heart broken.
- People can be so unpredictable. Sometimes even I surprise myself.
- To forgive someone is more about doing a favour for yourself than to the person you are forgiving.
- Even if you do not get the ending you want, it does not mean you have wasted your time.
- I’m not as determined as I used to be.
- I don’t always practise what I preach.
- I’ve learned to differentiate who are my friends and who are my acquaintances.
- I’ve learned to not try to please the people who never try to understand you.
- People don’t always understand. Sometimes they can be pretty harsh about it.
- Love knows not of race, religion and gender.
- Turning 21 is no big deal!
- I’ve learned that starting a day badly does not mean it has to end bad too.
- I’ve found the reason why I love to smile – because it makes other people smile too.
- If there is one person I have not truly understand, it is me.
- There are 2 most precious things someone can give you and that is their Time and their Heart.
Note:
#16 is something that I have always know about. Knowing and truly understanding its meaning are 2 different things. This year I discovered what it truly means.
2009 is extra special to me because of the people I’ve met this year and also because of the people I’ve stayed friends with and has gone through 2009 with me. Thank you guys for everything =) I am definitely looking forward to 2010.
